Adab dan Sopan (Manners)

Biar buruk rupa jangan buruk perangai. Sebagai seorang guru, aku dapat melihat pelbagai kerenah dan perangai manusia yang dimanifestasikan oleh murid-muridku. Sebenarnya, kanak-kanak lebih jujur dari orang dewasa. Mereka masih belum pandai berpura-pura. Kalau ada yang pandai pun, belum pro lagi. Sebab itu, tergelak bila aku ingat-ingatkan murid-murid yang cuba menipu. Ada tu, mati-matian nak menegakkan benang yang basah walaupun dah ditangkap basah. (jgn fikir lain ya!) Mereka ada berbagai cara untuk melepaskan diri. Masa inilah tugas guru bertukar menjadi lawyer. Keluarlah semua tips dan strategi yang aku belajar dari siri Paper Chase dan Judging Amy.

Generasi hari ini amat membimbangkan. Kadang-kadang aku tertanya-tanya, di mana silapnya. Kepentingan diri sendiri seakan-akan menjadi teraju kehidupan individu kini sehingga adab dan kesopanan ditolak tepi. Aku masih teringat ketika aku mengandung dahulu. Budak-budak sekolah menengah ini tak langsung berikan tempat duduk mereka kepada aku. Sehingga kini masih begitu. Orang buta pun mereka tak layan. Yang aku hairankan ialah macam mana mereka-mereka ini boleh 'put on a straight face' when everyone else are looking at them. Bila aku utarakan hal ini kepada murid-murid aku, mereka kata mereka malu. Apa mereka tak malu ke bila orang memandang senget kepada mereka kerana tidak mahu menolong orang? Malu membuat kebaikan tetapi tak malu terkinja-kinja, terjerit-jerit dan ketawa terbahak-bahak di perhentian bas, kolong blok dan kaki lima? Tak kurang pula mereka yang sekarang tidak segan-silu bercumbu dan bermesra di khalayak ramai. Mengapa malu membuat kebaikan? Kata mereka, orang semua tengokkan mereka. Kalau buat tak baik orang berpaling muka ke? Ya mungkin kerana meluat?

Nampaknya anak-anak kita ada yang malu untuk beradab dan bersopan. Ini dapat aku lihat pada anak-anakku yang masih kecil. Kadang-kadang, kalau suruh salam, mereka tak mahu kerana malu kata mereka. Sampaikan kalau ada teman-teman suamiku yang hendak memberi mereka buah tangan pun malu hendak ambil. Anak perempuanku pula, malu hendak lari kejar bas. Dia rasa kalau dia lari semua orang tengok dia. Kalau ada keramaian, malu hendak mengambil bahagaian dalam acara-acara yang disediakan. Hai, anak, malu harus bertempat. Tetapi tak apalah, biar malu jangan tak tahu malu.

Kita Merancang, Tuhan Yang Menentukan

Finally, at last, we have make the final decision. Actually, the decision has been made but due to some cost problem, we decide to go somewhere else. So we all decide to go to Brisbane. Actually, up till now I still do not know where God has planned for me to go. I just hope that God choose the safest place for me to go.

I guess I can say I am soo lucky. Dahlah we are the first group to receive this sponsorship from MOE but what I just find out is that, the next DDM group will have to do some work when they go for the oversea trip. We asked our lecturer what about us. He said MOE decided to sponsor us because they had so much money so they sponsor us but they do not have any structured plan for us. See, very lucky right. I dah agak, MOE mesti ada something up their sleeves. So we are very lucky indeed. Alhamdullillah.

This is life!!

This is life! Selama ini aku bagaikan sudah lupa macam mane hendak enjoy life. Maklumlah, waktu tu anak empat, masih kecil dan tugas sebagai guru ini tidak memberiku ruang untuk bersantai. Kalau dulu ada maid tu lainlah. Itu pun aku tak tahu nak enjoy life. Asyik kerja saja. All my life i put into my family and work. Bila dah pergi DDM course ni, punyalah rileks. Ya, adalah assignment, buku nak baca, etc tetapi life is not as stressful. This week kita ada e-learning. Meaning, we are not required to go to campus but just use the internet to view course material and discussion using the online portal. Yesterday, my friend, Jameela invite I and Juraida, datang ke condominiumnya to do e-learning together. It was heaven. When we arrived, we change into our swimming gear. We went for sauna. (first timelah. See what I miss in life!)Then we went into the jacuzzi pool. There was no one there. We had the pool to ourselves. After that we went for a swim. Buat 2 laps aje dah termengah-mengah. Tak ada stamina lansung. But it was a good swim though. Habis tu, naik atas and we had our lunch. All the maid dah siapkan. It was a simple lunch but the simplicity makes everything feels so cool and right. I felt like having a vacation. (maklumlah tak ada budak-budak yang kacau). When we finally sit down to do our e-learning, everyone was so relax until nak buat kerja pun macam malas. But we manage to do something about our assignment and journals. Before we went back, we were served with piping hot popiah and homemade sauce. Jameela buatkan kita teh tarik. Yummy. I went home in the afternoon feeling totally refresh. This has been a nice week for me. The good thing is that, my friends would like to make this into a weekly affair! Great!

I also manage to do some departmental work which need my attention. Kasihan Cikgu Munirah covering my duties in school. Although we are encouraged to forget about school work, it cannot be done 100%. Tak apalah Cikgu Munirah, pasti akan dapat ganjaran yang setimpal. Insyaallah.

On Friday will be going to the Esplanade for one of my Industrial visit. Going with my group to see what others might not have the opportunity to see. Will share in my next post.

Sayang Nenekku Sayang

Pengalaman seorang teman rapatku yang diceritakan lewat blognya telah memberi aku inspirasi untuk menulis cerpenku yang kedua. Ilham ini usah dicari. Ia akan datang sendiri apabila tiba masanya. Ikutilah cerpen keduaku yang bertajuk Sayang Nenekku Sayang.

(Suhana this is especially for you and a tribute to your grandmother whom I believe was a wonderful person, as beautiful as you.)

Dalam Hati Ada Cinta(3)

Yes! Finally they are showing THE SHOT that I was waiting for. Yes, they showed the part where Alia and Wan parted. The camera focus on their hands which was locked together but release slowly to create that 'tak rela nak lepaskan' effect. This time, meleleh airmata air tak tahan tengok kekecewaan Wan dan penyeksaan yang ditanggung oleh Alia. Sebak hati Alia dan Wan seakan-akan dapat aku rasakan. Maklumlah, pernah mengalaminya dahulu.

Did I choose the wrong Elective?

One of the elective that I select is the Asessment on Performance and Progress. Asessment in the form of test and exam is very important to evaluate the performance and progress of pupils. To me, test and exam should be accurate enough to show these.
The importance of valid and accurate evaluation tools should not be taken lightly as it affect pupils' future. Many a time we were shocked when we received the PSLE results because what is presented is not what is expected.(usually better! Thank God) Actually, what we have been testing them all this while does not accurately show their progress. Normal exam, like SA1 and SA2 is still not considered as summative but formatif because the real summative examination is at the end of the primary school level, that is,PSLE. (Now I know..)

With this realization, I decide to go for the course. Today is my first day attending the course. The lecturer is very good, very entertaining, very clear and very patient (think God get very good lecturers). He was explaining to us how the standard of deviation (equation) was derived. I tell u, all mathematics term and law of physics come out. With only a Grade C in Mathematics during 'O' Level examintaion, I was afraid if I could cope. Already some of us are very apprehensive of the coming assignment. But the lecture Mr Lee OK (Ong Kim for short)ease my fear. Yes I learn things which I might not be able to understand back them when I was doing my A level. Im thankful for that. But I want to take this as a challenge. No matter how confusing it may be, I will persevere beacause at the end of the day, I hope to be able to set a valid assessment tools and this sacrifice is all for my pupils. Amen.

Rasa Bersalah Kini Musnah

It has been a week since I started my DDM course. Nothing much happened but the knowledge I gained can never match the whole 5 years of being a subject Head. I'm sure I will gain more in the next 16 weeks.

I will be doing a lot of reflection, journal writing and e-journaling. We are also encouraged to blog in the NIE portal. Lucky I have been blogging coz I don't have much problem expressing myself. Alah bisa tegal biasa. Indeed, it is good to keep ourselves updated on current norms. Bukan semua yang baru itu bagus tetapi gunakanlah kematangan kita memilih yang baik dan yang buruk. Yang baik tidak semestinya baik senantiasa. Yang buruk pula tidak tentu akan menjadi buruk selama-lamanya. Kalau anak murid cikgu tak faham, harap mintalah pendapat orang dewasa untuk menjelaskan kata-kata hikmah cikgu ni.

Kalau nak tulis tentang apa yang dipelajari, tentu banyak sangat dan panjang lebar. Namun aku akan menceritakan tentang refleksi diri tentang pengajaran aku di sekolah. Kekadang itu aku terasa bersalah kerana tidak membuat persiapan yang canggih seperti powerpoint slide, alat bantu mengajar dan sebagainya. Namun aku percaya yang anak murid aku tidak kerugian kerana yang penting bukan pada alat-alat ni. Yang penting adalah penyampaianku sehinggakan dpt menarik perhatian murid. Apabila melihat pensyarahku yang bernama Dr Ng Pak Tee, segala rasa bersalahku musnah kerana aku melihat diriku sama seperti beliau. Beliau tidak menggunakan apa-apa alat yang canggih melainkan Microsoft word untuk menulis soalan. Itu pun digunakan mana perlu sahaja tetapi sesinya amat menarik minat kita semua. Aku tidak pun rasa mengantuk. Aku rasa begitu juga para DDMers yang lain. Sepanjang 2 jam sesi beliau, dia dpt menarik minat audiencenya dengan cerita, humour, dramanya, lenggok badan dan suara yang ada intonasinya yang tersendiri. Melihat Dr Ng seakan menonton seorang komedian beraksi di atas pentas. Aku benar-benar mengagumi kebolehannya. Walaupun aku belum mencapai tahap beliau tetapi aku rasa aku sudah mempraktikannya di dalam pengajaranku di kelas.